شب هاي پرستاره


Tuesday, December 31, 2002

● این درس گرÙ�تن هم خیلی کار Ø®Ù�نیه واقعاَ!



● این اینترنت نامحدود هم بد دردیه ها ! من 2-3 Ù‡Ù�ته است اومدم اینجا پیش برادرام. اینا هم هر چیزی تو این شهر دارن نامحدوده ! من نمیدودم دیگه Ú©ÛŒ میخوابم Ú©ÛŒ غذا میخورم ...



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Sunday, December 29, 2002

● گویند بهشت Ùˆ حور Ùˆ عین خواهد بود
آنجا می و شیر و انگبین خواهد بود
گر ما می و معشوق گزیدیم چه باک
چون عاقبت کار چنین خواهد بود


خیام



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Thursday, December 26, 2002

● من از موسیقیهای بدون کلام بیزن مرتضوی خیلی خوشم میاد! مثلاَ این!



● داشتم به دوران دبیرستانم Ù�کر میکردم! من قدس میرÙ�تم! میدون 73 نارمک! مدیرمون ( Ú©Ù‡ هنوزم اونجاست!!) روانی بود یه جورائی! به حجاب Ùˆ مانتو Ùˆ مقنعه Ùˆ جوراب Ùˆ Ú©Ù�Ø´ Ùˆ شلوار Ùˆ کاپشن Ùˆ ابرو Ùˆ ناخن Ú©Ù‡ همه جا گیر میدادن!این میگÙ�ت شال گردنتون باید زیر مقنعه باشه!! یه بار به همین من گیر داد وحجاب البته Ùˆ نذاشت برم سر کلاس! Ú©Ù‡ مامانم بیاد تعهد بده!!! خیلی گریه کردم اون روز!! خاک بر سرم واقعاَ! اتÙ�اقا ÙŽ بینش هم داشتیم Ú©Ù‡ ارادت نداشتیم به اندازه کاÙ�ÛŒ!!خلاصه مامانم میاد Ùˆ به جای اینکه بهش بگه زنیکه بیسواد تو Ú†ÛŒ میگی؟ یه داد کوچولو سر من زد Ùˆ به خیر گذشت! Ùˆ من از اون به بعد هدایت شدم!



● دلم میخواد اسم این وبلاگ Ùˆ بذارم شبهای پرستاره! ولی نشد! باید برم سراغ رویا دوباره!



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Wednesday, December 25, 2002


This is the most amazing painting I've ever seen, Starry Night, VanGogh 1889



● حالا من هیج کار دیگه ای ندارم بجز اینکه بیام اینجا چیز بنویسم. قرار هم نیست سه Ù‡Ù�ته دیگه امتحان دکترا بدم. دیروز داشتم توی سایت درخشان وبگردی میکردم Ú©Ù‡ یه مقاله دیدم از شایان مشاطیان ! شاخ دراوردم!! بازش Ú©Ù‡ کردم انگار خود خودش داشت حرÙ� میزد! اسÙ�ند 76 Ú©Ù‡ ما تصادÙ� کردیم از دزÙ�ول Ú©Ù‡ اومدیم تهران توی بیمارستان اومد Ú¯Ù�ت: سلام ! من مشاطیان هستم! !(Ú†Ù‡ اعتماد به Ù†Ù�سی!) خلاصه بعد Ù�همیدیم Ú©Ù‡ ایشون Ú©Ù„ÛŒ آدم مهمی هستن Ùˆ مسئول کامپیوتر IPM Ùˆ .... منم خیلی بچه بودم اون موقع ! Ú©Ù„ÛŒ حال میکردم آدم مهم میدیدم ! خلاصه اون Ùˆ صالح Ùˆ یه سری دیگه احتمالاً اومده بودن ماها رو سرگرم کنن Ú©Ù‡ خیلی دچار اÙ�سردگی بعد از تصادÙ� نشیم!
آدم باحالی بود ولی! منو با شاملو آشنا کرد ! و شهر کتاب!



● Tonight is Christmass eve and tomorrow is Christmass day ! In Christian kid's belief Santa 'll come tonight and leave presents for them under the Christmass tree! My roommate Barbara told me that she believed in Santa untill she was 10 years old, Finally some one at school told her that Santa doesn't exist and all the present she got so far are from her family, so she comes home crying and ask her mom: "Mommy Angela said Santa doesn't exist!! she's wrong, Isn't she?! " and she immitates her mom saying with her Italian loud voice: " I'm sorry honey, she's right!" and she cried for hours!
Any way it's absolutely depressing in this city !!( By this city I mean Seattle! It's rainy all the time in here! I love rain sometimes but not EVERY day!) Everywhere is closed, It's raining , My parents aren't here....




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Tuesday, December 24, 2002

● I guess I'm just gonna write in English for a while , 'cause I'm so slow on writing in persian that I loose the point of what I want to say!
I just found out that one of the guys that I met in Iran this summer has a weblog ! He isn't Iranian. So he sees Iran as a person from outside!! I was looking at his website today and I found something interesting, He thinks Iranian people lack the self-disciplin and that cause them to let the past to repeat itself! Listen to what he says:

"[Hossein, a captor] began by telling me that it was all over, that we were all going home, and that Iran was finally going to be free from outside interference so Iranians could have the kind of country they wanted. I responded that it sounded good, but that I was sure it was not going to happen because, in my view, Iranians lacked the necessary self-discipline to keep the past from repeating itself.



Hossein said he did not understand. I noted that governing a nation and permitting at least some degree of freedom (which Hossein and is cohorts always maintained would be the case in Iran) required great tolerance on the part of the authorities. I said that the government of such a country could not lock someone away or execute them just because someone with the power to do so did not like something the person said or did. I told him that rules and laws had to be applied to all citizens equally and that it took governmental and personal self-discipline to make this work. Looking him directly in the eyes, I told him that nothing I had seen, heard, or experienced in my time in Iran gave me any indication he and his fellow Iranians had any understanding of this. The revolutionary government was unwilling to grant its citizens any measurable degree of true freedom, and there was not, in my opinion, a snowball's chance in hell that it would...."

In some sense I agree with him but at the same time I think it is getting better even if it's just a tiny bit. Having an understanding of freedom needs a degree of freedom we've never had! I just rememberd once I was in Dr. Shahshahani's class and he was talking about some story Arostotle (I think! ) says: Imagine a man growing and living in a cave with being locked in where he sits, back to the sun, and whatever he sees is a shadow of what it really is outside. So he sees a rose as a shadow, There is no color, no smell or feeling!
I think this is an example of the image we have from freedom! It's a shadow !

What do you think?





● این لوگوی بالای صÙ�حه نمیدونم چرا به زبون اوستائی مینویسه خورشید رو!!!




● خوب دیگه Ù�ارسی بنویسیم.غربزدگی بسه دیگه! این وبلاگ حاصل کمکهای بی وقÙ�هء رویا ست. Ùˆ تشویقهای رویا Ùˆ آقای بچهء جنوب شهر ! راستی چقدر دلم برای ایران Ùˆ رویا Ùˆ بچه ها تنگ شده!
این ادیتور �ارسی هم من و یاد �ارسی تک میندازه! وبردیا و انتقادای سازندش!!




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Monday, December 23, 2002

● I found this picture on the web today, NYC, 1911. The picture's called two towers! I almost killed myself to learn how to upload pictures on my weblog!
Tomorrow night is Christmass eve, The family(including my family) usually gets together and have a nice dinner! Not that we're christian or anything but it's a good chance to spend sometime together , We might as well keep it up with them!!! As a matter of fact I don't even mind celebrating it! It's like feeling happy when every one else is happy !
Anyway, These days feel kind of sad though, I don't know why! I feel like I'm loosing something! Time maybe ?!




● I'm very depressed today! I guess I miss my parents. Recently, I found it very hard to spend a couple of weeks or so not talking to my parents even now that I think I'm happy and relaxed!
There is an empty space in my heart right now that can't be filled with anything but my parents themselves, have dinner all together and hearing my mom singing when she cleans up the kitchen or hearing my dad bumble when there's nothing on TV to watch.
I'm reading this book, The Catcher in the Rye, Written by J. D. Salinger about Holden Coulfield, a 16 years old boy who got kicked out of school for the second time, He has a rather wealthy family who lives in Manhattan and goes to a very good school in Pensylvania. It's christmass time and he decides not to go home and spend some time out in New York City to find himself.
He amazes me , the man inside of him is a great man eventhough he is very young and depressed and tired and confused. I specially like the part that he meets the nuns, and talks about Romeo and Juliett !
The interesting part about it is that the whole story happens in between Trenton and NewYork( mostly in NY) which I really know, in fact I live around the area.
Or when he talks about Central Park and the lagoon and the ducks and he asks himself where the ducks go when the lagoon is all icy and cold in the winter ?
It's a great book.
Well, I feel a little better now!







● Unfortunately I can't find persian characters on the keyboard now, I'll work on it later, But I write in English for now to warm up!



● I want to Thank Mr. Hoder first for hid short useful complete guide! (or I'm a genius using computers which is so NOT true!! ) I guess Microsoft should consider hiring him! ;-)




● Hi everybody!!



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